Made with Love

I am so terrible at scheduling photo sessions. When I was pregnant with my first, I booked mine so late. I took my maternity photos probably 2 weeks before Lennon was due. This time, I literally booked this 2 days before the session. The photographer, whom was also our wedding photographer, was doing mini sessions at the almond blossoms. They came out so beautiful. I loved loved loved them. I am about 25 weeks, so I had my baby bump, and not swollen yet. As for my dress, I literally asked to borrow my junior bridesmaid dress and it BARELY fit! I tried to wear my sister's bridesmaid dress from my wedding but that definitely did not fit. I tried really hard to get all my makeup glam, I went all out like with lashes and baking powder, not like cooking baking powder but makeup baking powder LOL. Did you know about baking your under eyes? Yeah it is a thing and it is the best discovery made on youtube make up tutorials because anything to cover my bags! I honestly am so happy I made the

Our Gender Reveal was so fun, we had never done one before. At first I couldn't decide if I should find out at the ultrasound or gender reveal. At my ultrasound, my sister and son were with me since my husband couldn't make it. I decided then it just didn't feel right to me if I knew and my husband didn't. It would be so hard to keep that from him. The Sonographer gave my sister the ultrasound with the gender and put it in an envelope ;) I'm so glad I waited to find out together. We invited our families and friends nearby. Parties are hard because we have such a big family and friends but we wanted to keep it small since our house is pretty tiny. I didn't have a set theme, we just threw it all together with our small budget. We decided on our reveal a while ago so after my ultrasound appointment, my sister ordered our reveal for us and kept our secret for about a week without telling anyone. I don't know how she did that but she did a great job. We didn'

Thankfully I am not in my first trimester. I mean that in the best way possible. My first trimester was a roller coaster, as I'm sure any pregnant women will feel. At first I was in shock because no matter how prepared you think you are, you are never really prepared for the mountain of emotions you'll feel. I had mostly "normal" symptoms, the one where you felt nauseous every minute of the day, fatigue at all times of the day where you'll need a nap even after you just take a shower. I felt like it was a fight between my mind and body because as much as I wanted to be productive my body just wanted me to rest. Eventually you have to surrender and take a nap. Aside from these symptoms, I had a lot of stress from work. It started to affect my health. It was the first that I had ever felt this way. To be quite honest I felt so isolated, more so than ever before. I was struggling with anxiety at work along with feeling like I was going to puke and pass out, but I was

"Raise your hand if you dislike Monday mornings? After such a busy weekend, there is no time to recover. Monday morning was such an emotional one. Of course I press the snooze button too many times, its 7:30am and I have 15 minutes. Fifteen minutes to get my son dressed, myself dressed, breakfast for Lennon, making sure he actually eats it, find clean clothes for him and I, then its a race to drop him off. For the first time, since he was in preschool last year, he never cried or hugged on to me. When I dropped him off he just hugged onto me, not letting me go. His eyes started to tear up and his arms wrapped around my hips. I just said "Lennon what's wrong?" In that moment, I just felt this sadness. My little four year old that has been so happy and independent, still needs me. Eventually it took two teachers to take his hand to play. I just couldn't help but leave crying all the way to work, and I couldn't stop when I was at work. I sat at my desk and coul